sunday

Could somebody PLEASE tell me where I can buy this dress??

It’s the famous slogan of Nike encouraging its citizens to just get off their butts and play the sport, but lately it’s taken on a new meaning for me. I’ve recently thought of how planned and socially-constructed my life is, as in, typical. I guess I’ll have to preface this with a beginning.

A couple of weekends ago when Chris and I went to Atlantic city, we met up with his coworker Vince, who brought along his two brothers. His brothers live the nomadic life, moving from Colorado to California to Alaska and back to Colorado. They find something they like to do, and they just move to another state to do it. Or they find something they hate and leave the place for something else. And when Vince’s brothers told their story, the only thing I could think of was “lucky.” Back in high school or college I would actually look down upon these wanderers who had no idea what they wanted in life, and really no aspirations. But now I see that they do whatever they want to do outside the limits of being socially acceptable.

So I started to think, What is it like to be free? To make your own decision and act on it, if that is what you want to do?

Another thing that prompted this was seeing a lot of my friends around me get married. I know I’m not too young, but maybe even at the right age to be getting married, but it seems like a decision that requires evaluating a lot of pros and cons. But hey, if you love the person, why not? Right? It’d make sense in terms of taxes (which is why I also understand now the fuss about gay marriages), and you love the person, why not settle down? Why should I have my parent’s approval? I think I’m old enough to make my own decisions (minus the fact that they still give me a monthly allowance).

What is it like to do whatever you want without the approval of others? I guess 90% of my peers are already living that kind of life, but being Asian, I feel the need to do the “right” thing–actually I’ve always been that way, see “Everything to Everyone” by Everclear. But for once, not only would I like to do what pleases me, but live an unrestricted life.

Come to think of it, what this really boils down to is I’m tired of being an overachiever.

Last night, Polo decided to go through the trash and investigate this nifty, interesting cardboard box. And look what happened.

Okay, so LAST FRIDAY, Chris and I went to Atlantic City to hang with his co-worker & co. Atlantic City is about 200 miles from DC, but it took us five fucking hours to get there. At one point we went 20 miles in two hours. So we get there at around 9, eat a quick meal at Hooters, and proceed to gamble. Well, they proceeded to gamble, I proceeded to watch them gamble, not die of second-hand smoke, and stay awake for as long as possible. I made it until about 2:30am (there’s only so much horse-racing I can watch) while the boys went for another five hours or so. I think next time my family heads to Vegas, I’ll take up my dad on that offer to play blackjack with him at the table.

First Week on the Job

I’ve had my first full week of work now, and I don’t think I’m cut out for this whole “adult” thing. My new job is, “glorified administration” as Dott calls it, I mean, yeah it’s alright. It is just administration stuff, and it’s like learning a new language where at first it’s choppy and confusing, but once you start practicing you become fluent and it’s cake. I’m still in the choppy phase, but I’m bored with the job too. At least I’m only here for 6-9 months before I move on to something else. But seeing as I’m already bored after 10 days….

Blogging Delay

So now that I’m a full-time employee with absolutely no access to the internet, I pretty much lose all motivation to blog when I get home because I’m exhausted and don’t feel like thinking. I hope I’ll find more energy and make time to do my periodic blogging, but this whole no-internet-at-work sucks balls.