sunday

My commute to work is my alone time. It’s when I can just drive to work, zoned out, and be left to my thoughts with the background droning of my stereo. It’s come to my attention that coincidentally, I’ve had a couple of my friends break up with their girlfriends at the same time, including myself beginning the trend a month ago. After being in-and-out of relationships for the past oh-so-many years, I’ve finally had it with relationships and am giving the *real* single life a try. But….

And this is where my commuter thinking time enters. What if you could have a relationship without commitment? I’m not talking about fuck-buddies, but maybe more like cuddle-buddies; should you decide to have sex with him/her it would have to be exclusive (at least, for me, because I’m not getting STDs). But relationship and commitment come hand-in-hand, with one follows the other, even if the girl is pushing for it most of the time. And I couldn’t formulate a situation that was realistic and made sense. So that theory came to a dead end.

And then I thought, what about adopting a boyfriend??

It’s like the foster system–except with maybe some binding contract just in case one of you (the other one) falls in love (heaven forbid). You have a bf/gf for a duration of say three to six months, and at the end of the term, you stop being romantically involved. You can still remain friends, if you were friends before, but both parties would understand that no deep emotions were invested and lost.

Well here’s where the problem lies, the boy and the girl both have to agree to be in this fake relationship …. which kinda makes it a real relationship, because even in a real relationship both parties have to mutually agree to be with one another. You can’t exactly pick the first hottie you see on the street and say, “I’m going to adopt you as my foster-girlfriend.”

If there was an agency that provided men/women for these adopt-a-thon relationships, it wouldn’t be such a problem. In that case, you might as well just hire a stripper to be your girlfriend for so many months.

Nevermind…there’s no loop-hole to this relationship theory. You’re either in or you’re out.

“Fokker out.”

Did anyone buy the legendary edition of Halo 3? If so, can you tell me if you can wear the helmet?

For those of you who frequent engadget, wired, and any other online tech news forum, you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about here (videos require flash). Digg it!

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{Courtesy of Pat Roby.}

I am a black widow when it comes to relationships. I fall in love hard and fast and will bring you in with me. I will paint this picture of our future together, how happy we’ll be, and us living the perfect life. We’ll have our fancy sports cars, our dogs, our home by the ocean; we’ll have our cool electronic gadgets and toys; we’ll travel around the world; we’ll be perfect. And once you’ve convinced yourself this is real and once you’ve fully invested your mind and soul in our utopia, I’ll change my mind about everything. I’ll change my mind about you, the way you dress, the way you comb your hair, the way you live your life. I’ll pull the rug from under you and take everything we’ve created with me. And you’ll have never seen it coming; it’ll hit you like a brick wall. And I’ll walk away without shedding a tear.

This might be very imprudent, but I’m going to release my dream blog for the public. Well, not just yet, but soon. This could be really bad because 1) I have fucked up dreams, 2) I have sexual dreams, 3) my friends are in my dreams, and 4) everyone will be able to read my subconscious mind. Frightening, isn’t it? I may have to edit/censor the posts at first to see how comfortable I am with this whole idea. Just as long as no one goes Freudian with this project, I think it could be interesting.

[Update]
Okay, it’s live. Some posts are password protected because…well, see above.

last-night

Today in history, I completed the White Paper required by Lockheed Martin headquarter for the Corporate Schools list review. I’ve been working on this paper for the last 14 months and have finally put the damn thing to rest. I’ve never been so sick of reading the same thing over and over again. Hopefully this will be the last paper I write for the rest of my life.

On another note, I finally purchased my 360 elite last Friday.

Guess what came in the mail yesterday? My sweet new 15″ MacBook Pro! However, I barely touched it because I was soon informed that the iPhone prices dropped by $200. After much debating if I should go downstairs and walk to the Apple store around the corner from where I lived, I finally decided, “what the hell, why not?” Besides, it was already half paid for from the MBP+nano deal. So I spent the rest of my evening jailbreaking with iFuntastic, which I might have to restore my phone to its original state and use Installer.app instead. But first I need to transfer all my shit from my powerbook to my macbook pro so I can start using my new laptop properly.

On a completely other note, Facebook is scarily starting to look like MySpace. I was looking at a friend’s profile who had all these third-party widgets on her page, and it was ridiculous how long it took me to find the SuperPoke application on it. At least you can’t change the background color or play obnoxious music and there’s some sort of standard UI the developers have to abide by.